miss colombina

Just a quick update on my job.

I love it!!!! But the pay cut is .... 'substantial' is an understatement. Ah who cares, it makes a lot less difference than I thought.

that's all.

Ranya Renee:




Mahmoud Reda, Ranya and Sahra Saeeda xoxoxox: (I look stoooopid)



And Tamalyn Dallal ....



And hey, if you say, how come I look better in pics now, well guess what, there's a technique to being photogenic and after YEARS of dumbass pics I finally found out. Check out this, it really works:

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Then comes another review, from a seasoned dancer actually, who just gives me a lecture on receiving critique. And I'm pissed, because so far I've thanked every single one of them, and somehow I am being perceived as antagonizing while I am doing my best to keep my calm while they tore me apart.

So I bit back. I wrote a review of chernobylred. I'm not proud of it. It was mean. In the strict sense of the word, yes it is correct, but it's complete bullshit, because if you did that to ANY dancer out there it would just make her look bad no matter how good she is, unless she's absolutely perfect. And I'm not proud of it, because she went on and agreed with me. And her friends too. [headdesk].

For me, the misrepresenting and the failure to acknowledge that I accepted all reviews (except smiley) is what irked me. And the fact that the reviews were rather mean spirited. For her, is the weapons that she tried to use on me, which I turned back on to her.

We have to be gentle with each other in the dance world, while still being honest and constructive. Dancing is who we are.

These women played the unsolicited advice/critique/abuse game with me, gambling on how long will I keep my cool before standing up, dusting myself, and showing that it is not ok.

Anyway, they scattered, going underground, and that means that I lost, because I said things that i regret.

If you say all these things to me, that doesn't matter much bese I'm sorry - I just don't believe them. But this girl might actually believe what I said about her dancing. And I FEEL REALLY REALLY BAD. I gave in to my basest instincts - oh and there is a reservoir of more... and it's scary.

Dude it's totally ok if you don't like my dancing!!! I get it, it's a matter of taste, and everybody will see different things. Technique is also relative, I have some technique, I could use a lot a lot a lot more. I didn't perform this on a big stage - just on the emerging artists stage where it belongs. My self-esteem is not based on your opinion. But when you are abusive, again and again, expect to eventually be called on it.

I'm not sure what is going on for people to just allow themselves to rip into another person like that.

I haven't deleted a thing from this thread, besides the very first comment I sent to hiki?

http://bellydancing.livejournal.com/2393508.html#comments

Struggling, but on track with exercise and dancing. I'm looking gleefully at how I'm becoming slowly more aerodynamic. I do boneheaded things like take 3 dance classes and 1 yoga class per day during the days when Mike sits with the boy. Other days nada. When I have the opportunity I take it.

Also starting to enjoy the city. I love this city, I love eating it. I'm already filling our calendar for summer. Theatre, dancing, family outings. Now that Boo is bigger he's more ready to participate. Jamaica was so much fun. It wasn't the perfect resort, but it was perfect for us because we were very open to enjoy it. Jerk chicken for lunch, lots of swimming in the pool, little creatures in the ocean wiggling around your ankles. Went parasailing. At night we went to the luminous lagoon in a boat in the darkness. I dove in, while Daniel was given a bucket of the miraculous water to splash about. He was game with everything. We sang happy birthday to Mike. The weather was perfect. Jamaican people are kind and attentive. They all say "ya mon" but seldom with the same inflection that you hear in Canada when people say "ya mon!".

Last weekend we celebrated 16 years of being together, Mike and I. He looks good!!

So, that's our life, this is going to be our life at least until the next chaotic event. Other chapters are being closed.

I'm really bummed at work. My best developer quit. He is going to Microsoft in Seattle.

He is going because our company treated him really badly.

He is brilliant, modest, always positive, and does what is being asked to do. I will really miss him.

He deserves it and so does our company. They gave him a really bad performance review. A 2 out of 5. Because he's the youngest in our group and they had to give it to someone.

I complained to my boss. I complained to my boss's boss. I complained to my boss's boss's boss.

They didn't like that. I was reprimanded. They asked me that if I think he deserves a bonus, to share from my own.

I said yes. I was mad because these are people who get to go to the Playboy Mansion or buy diamond necklaces, and they are the ones giving the bad performance review, and they are the ones asking _me_ to share my bonus.

After all that, suddenly they decided not to share my bonus, concluding that would be the wrong thing to do. And I never mentioned all this to my developer, and he probably felt very unappreciated, and now he quit.

Bummer. Good for him!

Today, after 3 years of being bullfrogpowered, we decided to stop... I feel so sad.

Instead, we're going to support united way (we did last year too) but also doctors without borders which is one of my favorite charity organizations..

12 hrs work on Friday (4:30 am - 4:30pm)
12 hrs work on Saturday (11:30pm - 12:30pm. With 1/2 hr here and there naps)

And what does the CEO of the company notice and congratulates me? About the 5 minutes configuration switch I did today.

sigh.

Still on call, lots. I had to negotiate with work 3 hours on Oct. 16 to perform in a show. Is this normal?

Me: I'm glad I don't live in Richmond Hill.
Dad: I'm glad I don't live in Toronto.
Me: I'm glad you don't live in Toronto, either. You'd probably vote for Rob Ford.
Dad: I would too.
Me: You don't even know who he is.
Dad: Yes, but if you hate him, you bet I'd vote for him.